I come to share my motherhood triumphs and learning experiences, vegetarian recipes, and Pintrest success and woes... and low and behold, it stares at me.... the infamous Realm Komiks.
Realm Komiks.... my dream, my fantasy world, my work.... The Realm Komiks Curse.
Realm Komiks, a Retzsch Production, was a passion, an inspiration of mine. I was more excited about this project than if I could win the lottery. That is EXCITED!
The passing of my Dear Grandmother put things to a halt. I had a journey of grief to climb out of. When I did, and dusted off Realm Komiks, Michael Cowen then passed away.
Who is Michael Cowen?
Michael Cowen was one of our main characters, Doberman. This character had a huge journey ahead of him and though all his character's shots were done and ready for Series 1, he was my inspiration for the unfolding secrets in Series 2.
Ya, see, Michael Cowen was a diabetic survivor. He submitted his picture for the role of the part of Doberman. I loved his look and had a long conversation on the phone with him that night. He had a wonderful personality and was dedicated, excited and passionate about this project.
The next day I received another call from Michael. He said, "Rebecca, I have to be honest with you..." as his voice trailed off I gave a hesitant, "okay..."
"Rebecca..." he began and then silence.
"What is it Michael?" I asked.
"Well, I don't know how to put this but I am a diabetic and I lost one of my legs and part of the other one. I have prosthetics and I walk with a cane and I walk with a limp. I am very dedicated to this and really want to be involved but I understand if it won't work."
I was a little taken by the news. I wasn't expecting anything of the sort to come from his mouth. However, it was nothing I saw of a problem with what we were doing. And Michael's spirit was so strong I didn't want to dampen it or his excitement. "Michael," I said, "It doesn't matter. They are pictures. We will improvise. You get to be Doberman. We'll work with it. It will all be okay."
And we did work. And it was all wonderful! He did an amazing job and I could never say one bad thing about Michael because he had the most amazing spirit and soul.
Michael was the next person to pass at my attempt of the comic book. The news was shocking. The diabetics, along with a mistake at the hospital, took him away from us at age 30, way to early.
I felt the comic book was cursed. What would I do without Michael?
Months went by and I decided I HAD to finish it now, if not for myself, for Michael and everyone else that had put so much time and work into it.
Not exaggerating, within that a week another passing in my family. My friends and family tried to convince me I couldn't let it think it was "this" comic book." Keep working", "It is OK." " It is a coincidence...."
So I picked it up again.... another passing....
Again.... the last time.... two years ago, and it was my Dad that left us. I have not picked it up since.
I have gotten a strong urge to work on the comic the last couple months and want to so bad finish the forgottenl; Take the characters on places they have not yet seen... but folks, the psychological aspect has me convinced if I pick this thing up again to work on it, I will in fact lose someone close to me. A silly mind one would say, yes, maybe... but you can't blame me for being apprehensive.
So, to come here tonight - to start Blogger.com to have a new beginning... well, quite a surprise to see the haunting Realm Komiks curse at Blogger.com
Is this a sign I should finally haul the curse out from the dust?
OR
a mere coincidence?
Michael Cowen as Doberman
August 11, 1977 - May 8th 2008
